rehab...

as my "O so many people that read this blog" may or may not know..
Team 1 of the KaosPilots in Rotterdam (that's me and my class mates) are going to travel to Israel/Palestine int he end of march. There we are going to live work and learn for three months.

Since I was like.. 16, I've had an addiction to a Scandinavian tobacco called Snus.
I've tries a couple of times to quite.. but never really put any effort into it.. and therfore it has never worked at all..
I now realized that I don't have a choice anymore.. I HAVE to quit..
have a feeling that Israeli customs won't know what Snus is, just see it as some black powderd thingy and take me for a terrorist.. or something.. so.. no Snus there..
not to mention the money I will be able to save.... MUCHO!!

So, now I am on purpose forcing myself through a program of cutting down, in other words, not cutting it out.. but trying in a propper way to cut down on the addiction before I cut it out..
let just say I understand now why they say that it's harder to stop ith Snus than heroin..
my body is shaking, and sick and I feel like crap..

So.. if anybody has the urge to feel sorry for me..
or has some great tips on stuff to do in Israel or ways of getting funding to help with projects or flights or housing there... please do let me know =)